Finger Lakes NY

I am at the three month mark, since I said my last goodbye to my husband Tom, as he left for work that rainy morning. The feeling as though I want to jump out of my skin and escape this hell is a heavy one. I feel the demanding need to get out of this house and even out of this state. Getting away, further away then just a day trip is in order! I know I won’t be able to run away from this pain, but I feel like I need to at least change my scenery. But, where?

I don’t want to go somewhere Tom and I have been. I don’t know if I can feel more sad, but I have a feeling if I did that, it would be a good possibility. Who would go with me? Who has the next two weeks off? Nobody I know. Also do I really want to have conversations with someone else almost 24/7? Do I have that energy? I don’t think so. I think I will get out of dodge alone, well with my 16 year old dog Lucy.

After much research, which keeps my mind busy for a couple of weeks, I have decided on the Finger Lakes Region. My brother in law’s sister and her wife love it there. That is some place Tom and I have never been. That will be the perfect place to just be for a few weeks, while I spend time in nature, by bodies of peaceful water with solitude and reflection, while being surrounded by an entirely different environment than I am right now. These walls are closing in on me. This might be exactly what I need at the moment.

Creating an itinerary keeps my brain working and focusing on something else. For the first time, I feel like I can take an actual breath. I get to make the decision on which lake to visit first, do I want to stay in a cabin, a resort, an air bnb, a yurt? A yurt? HHhhmmm… my husband always loved yurts. In fact he has an entire book dedicated to yurts. I’m not sure why we never stayed in one in all the weekend getaways we took. Maybe I wasn’t a big fan? I see this one place has about six of them with little lights connecting each one and a big bonfire in the middle. It looks quiet, inviting, and simple. Is it too close to the woods? While I like being outside, I will admit I am not a camping type of girl. Spiders and snakes are not my friends. But something about these yurts have my attention. My husband would have definitely approved, all of a sudden, I approve.